Bottomless...

July 2008 I showed up to http://www.devicebondage.com/track/MTA1MzQ5NzozOjc,45/ ready to endure my 3rd only bottoming/submissive shoot in my lifetime. The other model never arrived... it was just me...and I guess it tapped into that side of bottomless I have wrangled, explored and enjoyed since then. I had no clue who Insex was. I had no clue of devices. I had no clue really about kink and BDSM. I just knew that in the summer of 2008 I started to get a clue about my sexual being and the desire to be tested and tried.

I have always been a stubborn hardass and an addict to challenge. From academia to military to career choices I have always exhausted all paths and all options. Perhaps that's why I enjoy dominating men and women as well as enduring it to see where it all is.  When Kink called about me bottoming for the August live show with my buddy Ariel X, I enthusiastically said "fuck yeah!"

There are a lot of views on when you dominate on camera you can't be submissive. I am confused by it as I typically go with what I feel like. For the last year I have been struggling with the notion of whether or not shall I submit on camera anymore. It has become too "personal" for lack of better terms and if you ask me what it means, I guess an eye to eye conversation would be the most important way to express what I mean by that statement.

All I know is my gut and my bottom want to be there. Will I be submissive? Perhaps. Will it be like my previous shoots at Kink? A dash of yes but a an emphatic no. I am thankful for Kink with what doors it has opened for me and I guess this will be a day for me to really thank them... and I can't wait!

So log in tomorrow 12:30 Pacific Standard Time.. say hello... bring suggestions... this may be the last time you can or it may be the one of many. But remember what you wish for only goes tenfold on the willing victims who submit to me as well.

Cheers and g'night!
Dia